Unwanted but new journey

This is very very normal. The ups and downs of this bugger of a journey. You go through every emotion imaginable. There's the disbelief that this is happening to you, then the terror for your life, the unknown of how your going to cope, the anger of 'why me' and because it turns your life upside down, the helplessness of being out of control, sadness for your family, relief of a good outcome and even gladness of finding that your are not alone. This list goes on and on. And you keep on going on this roller coaster of emotions. I'm nearly at my one year anniversary of my diagnosis date and I can tell you that you do learn to live with the changes BC forceably brings upon you. Your chin will be drawing towards your chest many times but it will lift up again. You WILL find your new normal and forgive yourself for feeling low. We are not superwomen but it's amazing how much strength we do find to carry us through.

I won't say "chin up" Joy because that's the last thing you want to hear. Let yourself grieve and be angry sometimes. As my mum always says "better out than in". One day at a time.

Love Janey xxx