The death of the 'other' me?

Time out is the order of the day.  Your old self is still there you just can't find her at the moment. Try and be kinder to yourself. Talking writing are all good therapies. Keep writing to release your frustration and more importantly give yourself time to heal. Take care sending you a virtual hug from Christine xx 

It's only a short time since treatment finished. Your body is still recovering. Honour that need for it to take time to heal. You will. Mentally and emotionally we need time to adjust to our physical change and our mental change on how we see the world. I am still under active treatment until next year. My life is still planned around surgeries and infusions. It will seem strange not to do that. Bit by bit I am returning to my old life. But very slowly. My foggy head only cleared when I started on optifast to try and shed the 19kg I put on. I can't help but wonder if all those added vitamins in it made the difference. Only now...14kg down, do I feel like I have my body back. It will  never be the same. It aches. It's scarred and parts are numb. But it is my body  and I will learn to love the new one. I foubd menopause a difficult transitional time...I just didn't feel like me for a time, but slowly my body adapted. It's okay to grieve. It's okay to feel sad. Just plan  to do one thing a day that brings  you joy and soon you will find  your smile and sparkle again. Kath x

After being on the treatment merry-go-round and cancer being all consuming it is very natural after all treatments are finished, to feel a little lost and alone. It does take several weeks or even months to get yourself in to some semblance of you again. Take it steady and just enjoy "life" for now. Its a hellova nice blessing to have. <3

Hi read this and I see and I see myself. It is  a tough trip. My daughter was home in October and we had a chat, she started to tell me how horrible I was to be around last Christmas. My heart broke because I thought I was hiding it from her.( She lives overseas and had come home) I knew how bad I was and went back to my counsellor. 
I said to her why didn't you say something to me and she said mum you have just gone through treatment and when you were doing that you were pushing forward and just doing it, now that it is finished you are looking back and thinking holy crap it has been tough now I can breathe. 
It will be 3 years for me next Feb and I'm still healing. Life is different so much has changed I'm now trying to take lots of leave from work and trying to put me first.
My motto is today is another day and I try to make the most of each day.
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Oh ScorpionQueen. It will get better. I promise. I hit my own rock bottom a month ago and since then the only way is up. Hang in there. Rest, recover, recuperate. Sending you heaps of hugs and strength.

I can so relate to this.  I have my 'speed bump' moments too.  It is the most horrible thing to have to experience.  The longing for the old you the  trying to make sense of all that the new you brings and to have to cope with all the challenges when our reserves are empty and our tolleration limits are low.  No one else gets this as good as others who goes through this.  We hear ya chicky, hang in there the sun is still shining behind that very dark cloud.  Love xxxx

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