Missing my privacy

Hi there. I am a 45 yr old married mum of 4 who lives in a country town where everybody knows everybody. I had a 4cm tumor and 9 cancerous lymph nodes so full mastectomy to affected side and all lymph nodes removed. I have been  told i am most likely to have a great outcome but i am having full on chemo and radiation to make sure every evil cell is gone. I have a positive attitude and peopple are amazed but I cant imagine getting thru this any other way. I can handle losing a body part as i simply had no choice. What i cant handle is losing my hair. Its not even a vanity thing. Its taken me most of my 45 years to actually be comfortable with my thick long curls. I actually wouldnt even mind losing my hair but now that my hair is falling out it wont be long befor everybody knows i have cancer and i can no longer keep it private. Not looking forward to the looks of sympathy or making others feel uncomfortable.

Im annoyed that now I can no longer choose who knows about my BC as it will be very obvious that i have cancer. I said to hubby this morning the thing about losing my hair is that people are now going to see me with my 4 young children and think the worst and feel sorry for me when I am trying to stay positive.