Hi Janny54
i kept a journal when I was first diagnosed - started it a few weeks after my mastectomy. At first I wrote in it almost every week. Last time I dived in it was over 6 months since I had last done so. It's still of interest to me to read but 5 years on some of it seems as if it was about someone else - I have to remind myself not just about dates but how I felt, what was important. I think overall it was really useful - let me say some things I might not have said to anyone, but it's the subtle things that interest me now - changes in importances, attitudes and yes, fears. Best wishes.