Reconstruction not what I was told to expect.
I’m near the end after a double mastectomy 2 and a half years ago with failed reconstruction. 10 operations later and I have died flap reconstruction 4 or 5 rounds of fat grafting (I’ve lost count), t...
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This is hard work. And it’s hard work at a time when your expectations were that things would be a bit easier, a bit more ‘normal’ . Feeling that you should be grateful to be alive simply reinforces that you’re not feeling all that grateful. At least not yet. Like @Cath62, I would recommend a good counsellor - someone accustomed to cancer patients but also able to encompass all of you. Talking to an informed, empathetic and insightful stranger can be immensely therapeutic. Your body has been through the mill but so has your mind and your feelings and some professional help in that quarter may be overdue. Loved ones may be supportive but they are not the right mix for the task in hand - to sort out your feelings, hear you, hear you say things you would never want to burden loved ones with (and which may be very temporary) and find your balance and inner strength again. Best wishes.