Another diagnosis... crikey, back again. Looking for someone to tell me I'm not loosing my marbles please, lol. This online forum provides me with so much strength, I feel guilty that I can't offer much support yet to those who write in, but I gain much strength from reading your stories. I completed bc treatment last October, started tamoxifen November, diagnosed brain "infection" February after taking a fall so bad broke my cheekbone and split chin open, diagnosed stage 2 melanoma cancer April, PET scans surgery, recovery, 1st yearly mammogram & u/sound since diagnosis and show 15mm enlarged lymph node same side as original bc. Drs doing a "watch and wait"... not sure if I like that but their the drs...now just diagnosed stage 3 melanoma and undergone more surgery. Bloody hate whinging but can I just say...this is starting to break me now. This crap cancer is springing up everywhere and if I talk to anyone I feel burdeoned with guilt that I'm making it all "more than what it is", especially when I know others out there suffering health conditions so much more than I am. . I work in community care, disability/mental health...have worked throughout all of this... have always been so mentally strong and confident. Now I'm starting to doubt and second guess myself, quite probably because everything feels like its out of my control. Has anyone else experienced anything similar... feel like I'm loosing my mind yet anyone around me would think I was calm coping and completely sane, lol... Thanks so much for reading. 😊

Oh for fucks sake @Chevvy. That is a dreadful situation to be in. Excuse language.Never think you need to compare yourself to anyone else. This is not a race or a competition. You have every reason to be frightened, who wouldn't be? What sort of superhuman would you have to be to just keep smiling and dancing, caring for others when all this is going on?Please ask your GP/team for a referral to a counselor. That was always hit and miss situation even before COVID. Give it a go anyway.You are not losing your mind. I wish I could help you more.. Mxx

Oh @AllyJay Your story has made my day. I have gone through the morning chuckling at the thought of it. I read it at 05:30 this morning, in bed with my first cup of coffee of the day. It is priceless.Like you I had to wipe coffee off my tablet screen and lucky that it is bed sheet changing day - the coffee went everywhere!Throughout my many years of living remotely in the Kimberley I have met many "D**kless Doctors" who have come to "save" us (and usually bu**ered off after a few months, well hello, have you given a thought as to how we have managed before you arrived!The best I can relate to with appointments, is the two appointments with two different specialists, a day apart, in Broome - a round trip from home of 440kms. And no, the specialist booking clerk refused to change the appointments to the same day because " you might not come to both appointments on the same day and that's two appointments wasted!"

@Chevvy You would be forgiven for having a downer with everything that’s happening we all do at some point. I’ve made use of the Councellor and it was a great help. Everything she taught me during our sessions i use some all the time and others i put back into practice again when things get tough. BCNA network is a great place to let of steam because nobody judges you Take care and make some you time

Goodness me @Chevvy You've certainly got yourself in a medical pickle and understandably a highly emotional state.Don't fret, you're not losing your marbles, you've drawn the short straw. Doctors doing a watch and wait on the lymph nodes. I recently had my annual mammogram and was asked when did I have my vaccination as they find if it's recent the lymph nodes are enlarged. Perhaps your body is trying to defend!Please don't feel isolated. That's what the forum is about, like minded to help you through. Vent away!As suggested by others a Counsellor may help with coping mechanisms Take care

Thanku for all your replies and stories lovely ladies. Sounds like we've all been greeted with a bit of madness somewhere along our travels. I think the "loose marbles" in my head are rolling a bit slower today after all your help. 😊

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arpie
Member
4 years ago
How good is that .. that your Onc is well versed in both BC and Melanoma! WIN! My surgeon was both a BC and Thyroid Specialist .. so I was wondering the same, if they may be related somehow too?

I do hope you are having a GOOD BREAK (so to speak] this time, to recover as well as you can .... I feel for you - it will all feel so weird for a while, as you have had some pretty serious surgery surgery on 3 fronts in recent time xx. Make haste slowly xx

yep, definitely put yourself first this time, and do what you have to do to get well again xx you’ve been thru a heap of stuff and deserve a break xx
iserbrown
Member
4 years ago
Goodness me @Chevvy
You've certainly got yourself in a medical pickle and understandably a highly emotional state.
Don't fret, you're not losing your marbles, you've drawn the short straw.
Doctors doing a watch and wait on the lymph nodes. I recently had my annual mammogram and was asked when did I have my vaccination as they find if it's recent the lymph nodes are enlarged. Perhaps your body is trying to defend!
Please don't feel isolated. That's what the forum is about, like minded to help you through. Vent away!
As suggested by others a Counsellor may help with coping mechanisms
Take care
cranky_granny
Member
4 years ago
@Chevvy
You would be forgiven for having a downer with everything that’s happening
we all do at some point. I’ve made use of the Councellor and it was a great help. Everything she taught me during our sessions i use some all the time and others i put back into practice again when things get tough.
BCNA network is a great place to let of steam because nobody judges you
Take care and make some you time
Chevvy
Member
4 years ago
👋just recovering from the surgery arpie, havent seen my oncologist yet to discuss immunotherapy or any of that, appt in a cpla weeks. Am quite blessed her speciality is in breast and melanoma.. what's the odds of that.. my surgeon tells me cancers not related but I have to wonder if it is, particularly with an oncologist who has chosen to specialise in the two. Maybe just bad luck. What I can say is I'm walking lopsided and with heavy limp, lol... left boob still huge from radiotherapy, left cheek still swollen from fall as didnt heal properly, left shoulder sags from 1st melanoma surgery, left leg missing half my calf from recent melanoma surgery... if one didn't know better they'd think i was staggering drunk as all surgeries to left side. Some days wish I was !!!
Thankyou Zoffiel for encouraging me to believe my marbles are in fact in tact. I did mention to Dr my thoughts, just wanted to stick me on anti depressants.. unfortunately have allergies to all ssri's so thats not an option...wish it was..felt like I was making such a fuss. Think it comes from the industry i work in, spent so many years advocating, and "fixing" things for everybody else feels like i should be able to fix it for myself. You both might be on it with the counsellor idea 👍 thanku girls xo
arpie
Member
4 years ago
Golly gosh, @Chevvy - you’ve had a really rough trot, that is for sure xx I hope you’ve recovered well from your fall - that was really bad luck :(

With everything you are going thru, you are definitely not losing your mind ..... it is just going a million miles an hour, trying to compute all that is going on xx

With your melanoma, has immunotherapy been mentioned at all? There have been leaps and bounds in that area in recent years. Maybe ask about it if they haven’t mentioned it?

You are amazing to have worked all thru this - but don’t forget to look out for yourself as well xx If you get anxious or stressed, definitely chat with a Counsellor or social worker at your Cancer Centre, or chat with the helpline here, too xx

take care and all the best xx
Zoffiel
Member
4 years ago
Oh for fucks sake @Chevvy. That is a dreadful situation to be in. Excuse language.
Never think you need to compare yourself to anyone else. This is not a race or a competition.
You have every reason to be frightened, who wouldn't be? What sort of superhuman would you have to be to just keep smiling and dancing, caring for others when all this is going on?
Please ask your GP/team for a referral to a counselor. That was always hit and miss situation even before COVID. Give it a go anyway.
You are not losing your mind. I wish I could help you more.. Mxx

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