Twelve months have passed, very confused feelings throughout that time and still emotional and tired. (Not tired and emotional though, have stopped drinking altogether). Everybody wants me to be happy and enjoy my new post BC life ... I suppose that's reasonable but as I was just trying to explain to my son, here for Christmas, you just don't "get over it". I mentioned the theory that it's like Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ... not sure if that's really so, but it makes it easier for others to understand. It's so great to hear from others who have come through much worse than I have and are so happy and optimistic. I admire you so much! Good luck to all for the festive season.