Hi to all of you lovely ladies, as I travelled the path of metastatic disease I learned quite early on that I would have to learn to be selfish and I have, not in the nasty sense of the word, simply I cannot do then nor now what I used to, my friends now know that I can only manage an hour or so for lunch or coffees then I have to go home and go to bed, they only have to take one look at me to know whats what, nearly no hair pale complexion and rings around my eyes, I now wear a hat or cap all of the time as after losing my hair for the third time I am over it, its a glorious day outside and my partner and the neighbour and his wife have all gone fishing together minus me, I simply cannot do it anymore, at least not for 3 or 4 hours, so I just potter around, I will have a nana nap at 1.00pm till 4.00 and then I am ready for bed at 8.30 I do not get up until 10.00, my body just wont let me, but hey I am alive.
I understand that its the drugs combination that I am and have been on for 8 years, I am so grateful for my family and friends they know whats happening and will plan things around me as best they can, my evening social life ended about 7 years ago and I am most happy in front of the tv watching a favourite program, that said I have managed to fold the washing my partner put out and have got the sprinklers on back and front I am not able to stand and water any more so I cheat!!,
my dog is the biggest loser in all of this as I cannot walk her any more just as well shes very happy running around the back yard chasing the sprinkler!!
Its so good to be able to talk like this knowing that you all understand, people have to walk in our shoes to get it!
Thanks again ladies,
wendy55
