I too have trouble with this whole mindset. I think it takes time to get a grip. My guess is you are normally a very organised person in control of most things and now whack in the face. Fix this! Well that was me and not being able to fix this has done my head over and over. Also a mum with 3 little girls, 44 years old always lived a healthy life and now a voice telling me its all over. I THINK Im starting to get a grip. I was diagnosed on 29th May and operated on 2 days later and swept into the whole chemo world of uncertainty. Now Ive finished Chemo and weighing up radiotherapy or bilateral mastectomy. Thinking the big chop of both boobs will give be better chances overall. When tge big black voices inside my head are being nasty I say to them now this is not a helpful thought so go away. I find this is helping me. They are popping up less as timr goes on. Be kind to yourself and dont feel you have to be strong. (Like I did). Ive cried every day since diagnosis and my surgeon and Onc all say you are not coping well and you have taken this worst than most. Well really, Im not sure how a mum of 3 who is needed so very much is supposed to take it. There is no right or wrong way, its your way so you cope with what ever way you can. The support groups are great but at first its all info overload and a whirl wind of what ifs, buts and hows. Take one step at a time hun and get through one treatment at a time. My girls are 5,6 and 8 and I refuse to tell them about whats happened to me as they do not need to have the worry. Not sure how Im going to explain the chop yet. Thinking of you and we are all hear to chat in your darkest moments. Xxx
