Wondering if this will ever be over

@SuzyG I totally agree with you, and Ive realized there is no wrong or right in this decision, we all feel very differently. On my last chemo treatment I had my kids with me then I saw the Oncologist and we were so relieved it was the end!! To have him say now go have a rest get over chemo and think about a Mastectomy left me gutted. I couldnt get my head around it after everything Id been through and I was fine. It was because of the recurrence, he even said to me that I was different to most patients he'd seen!!! Im like what???? he said most in my position want it gone..ummm well Im not everyone and Ive struggled with the decision all this time, now Im scheduled and petrified of the surgery, going backwards when Ive come so far...but mostly??? petrified because I'll never know if I made the right decision, but the only thing I have to cling to for me is this is the last thing for me I can possibly do, I guess thats what gets me over the line. So dont ever do what you dont want!! Its all about YOU, nobody else! Sending a big Hug, because Ive actually burst into tears...knowing how damn hard it is. Melinda xo