Hi Ladies I need some advice. OK so they are now recommending mastectomy and then radiation and probably Tamoxifen. I am really struggling with the thought of losing the breast so much so that I have googled how much endone/endep I would need to go to sleep and not wakeup. I am having nightmares about it. Do any of you have thoughts on my not having the surgery but going ahead with the radiation and hormone treatment? I am seeing my oncologist this afternoon but I know they will go along with the surgeon. I just feel that if I go ahead with it I won't feel good about myself at all. I still want to do things - travel, swim, live but would be too self conscious with only one breast. Really struggling with this. Also like I have read on other posts - it could come back regardless of what I do.