Wondering if this will ever be over

Suzy am thinking of you, I know after doing this myself 5.5yrs since initial diagnosis and Mammos u/sounds yearly for 4yrs prior, Im over it too. So you did chemo before surgery? its so hard when they dont get clear margins and you have to go back. I havent experienced that either diagnosis. I think too post chemo you really just need a break, my last day of Chemo I was hammered out of the blue with HEY!!!! I think you should consider mastectomy now as it was a recurrence. Ummm after 6 months earlier my Surgeon swore it wasnt needed due to the fact it was a major lumpectomy, Im big breasted and in my case it was equivalent and no benefit. NOW of course they say preventative. All I can say is this in all these years. Dont do anything that doesnt sit right in your gut!! I have alot of faith in my Team and so am guided by their opinions, In my situation, a double mastectomy would be overkill and unnecessary, but it took for BRCA Gene testing and a report from the Geneticists to substaniate the theory of a negative result. Having my left breast removed soon is purely preventative, like so many women. I cant guarantee it will come back, or it won't. And I totally agree with you that where does it end?? so I believe in just dealing with what I have at hand in this moment. Do what I have to do and then refocus back into just living as best I can without the whole thing dominating my life. Step at a time, big hugs for tomorrow, just wanted to say you are not alone in how you feel. Its a very personal and individual journey of no right or wrongs.  xo Melinda