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ScorpionQueen's avatar
10 years ago

Well that is @#$%ed!!!!

Well....had my appointment with the surgeon today;

Not what I really wanted to hear at all......Booked for CT Scan and bone scan on Monday; Tumor was 7cm, aggressive, margins came back unclear, 19 lymph nodes taken, 4 were positive. Staging unclear.

What does that mean now, I ask....

Your treatment plan is as follows.....

~Chemo, lots of it....ongoing for approx 6 months

~then further surgery because of unclear margins, bi lateral mastectomy and reconstruction. But will delve further into that with surgeon when the time comes.

~radiation therapy

~hormone therapy

Surgeon will call me on Wednesday after he has discussed further with his team with referral to Oncologist and when to start chemo.

To say I'm gob smacked is an understatement. Again my brain has cocooned me in its protective fog. My poor family, they are besides themselves. How the F#*k did I miss a tumor so big? I didn't even feel a lump!!! Just a small area of hardening. then the change in appearance.

Today I was slapped a little harder,   But you, you bitch...I'm coming for you....so watch your F&#$@ng back!

- Tracy

Stay strong|breathe|believe

 

 

 

  • Hi Tracey,

    The news you got is just what you didn't want to hear!  BUT..... darl, you are such a strong strong lady with a wonderful family.  You will deal with this, with courage and that gorgeous "kick ass" attitude!  Be prepared for days where you feel overwhelmed with it all, days where you just want to hide somewhere and talk to no one about anything - especially boobs!  Deep breaths and face each day with each new challenge with that glorious style of yours!  

    You're in my thoughts xoxoxo  

    Barb 

  • Sorry to hear your news Tracey like you I didn't feel a lump, more of a thickening further in the breast, even the DR said we would never have found it, luckily the mammogram did.

    Take one day at a time & remember we are here for you every step of the way. xx 

  • Hi Tracy

    No it's not the news you want to hear. I was initially told I would need radiotherapy and like you, was gob smacked when told I needed 6 months of chemo after my path results came in. It is a lot to get your head around. I ended up having 3 tumours and didn't  feel any of them. It was sheer fluke that I developed a cyst and went to have that drained as the biggest tumour was actually inside of the cyst. I was due a regular mammogram 4 months after my diagnosis and if I had of waited until then I would have been in dire straights. But the thing is, you have found it and now you are going to do something about it. Take it one day at a time. You will get through this. You have a fighting spirit. It will be tested but you WILL get through it. Hang in there. Karen xox

  • I keep thinking the same thing, tumour up to 7cms, they are not completely sure because I had chemo first. How did I miss it??? I think it' was buried in tissue somewhere. 

    Keep that strong attitude it helps !!!!

    i finished chemo and had bilateral mastectomy and I survived, this forum helps along with lots of support - keep tapping into all that

    Hang in there !!

  • Sorry to hear this Tracy. Like you I didn't feel a lump just a thickening of my breast. Prior to that I had always though BC would feel like a hard pea. Glad to see you are gathering your strength for the year ahead. I have a year of treatment as well as radiation and hopefully will finish in December if all goes according to plan. One day at a time, but also you go kick its butt!

    Nadine

  • OMG. I don't know how you can even type. I would be smashing everything in sight! Let it out so you can get ready for battle.

    Chemo step one? Just focus on that. Don't forget to breathe. We're here for ya.

  • Bastard disease , I can only say at least it was found, I'm sure it's going to be a long haul for you but no turning back you have to try and go forward, it will take time to sink in and I think you miss half of it in the fog. You can do this , well you have to don't you. Kick the bugger out of this world. Adean xx

  • Hi Tracy

    You are in the worst part of the diagnosis phase. After Monday's scans you will be much clearer. It is hard, there's no sugar coating it. I remember sweating on the scans, but soon you will have a much clearer path forward. The good thing?They removed that tumour, now you will get the treatment to destroy any stray cells. It sounds like your tumour had positive receptors, as you mentioned hormone therapy  so that's also a positive treatment wise as you have options.  I know this is hard and shitty, there's no way around it. One day at a time, this is very treatable.

    Lisaxx 

     

     

  • Oh Trace, I'm so sorry for the shocking news and the terrible day you've had. No wonder you've gone into a fog, that's just too much to take in. It sounds like too big a battle, but you don't have to take up the fight all at once. .... breathe...... hold those you love close...... rebuild emotional strength for Monday's scans. Hurting with you, love, Tracey xXx