Hi Marjohnp, sounds like you have a lot on your plate already. There is help available through Blue Care nurses or Home Assist or Just Better Care. Perhaps there are other support services available in your community? Your GP may be able to point you in the right direction. You could arrange extra help for one day a week and then see how you manage. Everyone is different with how they respond to chemo, but one thing we all feel is really tired. You need some looking after too, so if anyone offers help SAY YES PLEASE. A cooked meal is always welcome, I did online grocery shopping that was delivered to home. No matter how much you are used to being the carer, you really can't drive yourself to chemo (I tried, it just doesn't work!). So plan now for family or friends to drive you, some hospitals have transport available to help you, just ask. All the years you've been helping other people, now is the time to accept help in return. You can make it through this, but you don't have to make it on your own, Tracey xXx