Scared

Hi Tiarni, I just came across your post.. I have also had the double mastectomy and lat dorsi recon with implants.. When I saw your post my heart dropped for you. I can see it is like a month ago now, how are you going? I see that you didn't have radiation the first time, I wonder why? I live in Melbourne and my sister in Brisbane and we both have had it, although mine was worse than hers. I flew to bris to be with her and I noticed a really big difference in the treatment of the same disease. They didn't even offer drugs that I had been given and if I didn't know to argue on her behalf she would have missed out. I am so sorry for you that your children have to deal with this as well. Mine were 3 and 6 when I got diagnosed. My oldest is now 9 and I would be shattered to have to tell her again. But you know kids constantly astound us with their resilience and empathy, you never know what you can handle until you have to. I am due for all of my test next week to make sure no reoccurrence and my right side feels a bit funny. I'm scared too but I haven't said anything to anyone because I will wait and see after the tests. Hopefully it's just the implant bugging me because I've already had radiation and I can't have it again. Sometimes everything feels so unfair. I hope things are going ok for you and your family right now. If you're feeling up to it, please let us know how you are feeling and what treatment you are having. Good luck x