Big breath JohJoh. I had 4 doses of Docetaxel & Cyclophosphamide and yes it does get a bit more challlenging each time, but you just have one more to go! All you have to do now is keep your head straight!
I learnt to meditate at the Gawler Foundation www.gawler.org and can really recommend it, for keeping you sane. We just have to put the thoughts of recurring cancer in their own little compartment and in to the cupboard as they are not rational thoughts. We drive cars every day you have a much greater chance of dying in a car!
Keep your chin up and call that positive attitude back! Be well.