Now the idea of my ugly fat self and my ugly fat disfigured boob popped out and exposed while lying on some fugly board attached to what looks like an instrument of death, in a fugly room while people stare at me, and doing it every day, yeah thatās more than I can do.
Iāve read about shorter durations etc for radiation, but nobody has mentioned to me who gets this? Why not me?
I am starting radiation therapy next week.
Has anyone ever bailed on radiation? ie not complete it? Is there a way to make this less terrifying? I could give it a go but may quit. I donāt think I can do it. I wasnt scared or anxious when being told of the breast cancer diagnosis, or and wasnāt anything other than upbeat during the surgery. This machine scanner boobs out bullshit. Nup, nada, nope,
Thatās how I feel today.