Relative Calm

It's 11am and I'm sitting on the steps of my verandah looking out over the Kinglake Ranges on this bright, sunny morning. The sun is warming and soothing me in preparation for the big day Tuesday when my last big hurdle will be underway. I'm reflecting on my journey so far and am amazed that I am at this stage already. What a long year it has seemed. When I was going through chemo, I thought it would never end, that somehow I was stuck in a time loop that repeated over and over. My days have calmed now and it's not all a blur of pain. I no longer hold my breath and wonder what will be the future, it will be what it will be. My husband, my love, is by my side again and we are silent. Just sitting. A blue wren and his love have perched on a post in our garden. Beautiful pair. We often see them on that same post. I wonder what he is thinking, is he protecting his love by being near her? I think that is what my love has been doing and continues to do by just being with me right now. On this beautiful morning I can't believe that anything bad can happen. Be safe my sisters and stay strong. Love you all Janey xxx