Radiotherapy

Thanks girls. Unfortunately Tonya we don't qualify for any assistance financially and as I have previous health issues, I couldn't get income protection. My medications bill was $300 a month to be able to function before the cancer, so goodness knows what it is now! I also find that work gives me a sense of normality that I need to be able to cope. It's when I'm home, alone and have time to think about this process that the doubts and fears rear their ugly heads. The baldness doesn't worry me. Apart from at work where I wear the wig as I think it is more professional, I just get around all natural. People stare sometimes but I don't care. I'm lucky I've got a good head for bald. Marg, I'm pleased that you think chemo is harder. If that's the case, I'll be right. I hate the meltdowns. I want to stay positive and I want to be proactive in getting through this as I am a firm believer in the power of positive thinking but sometimes I just can't. It's almost like I'm kidding myself and my true feelings come to the surface. Maybe they are just part of the feelings, as well as the positive thoughts. It's so confusing at times. Thanks again xx