Lonely

Thanks Mich xxx. I am in the Ipswich area in Queensland. I have looked at support groups to go to, but I have found all of them seem to be during the week and during the day. I work during the week, and have been lucky enough to be able to go to work. The guys at work have been pretty supportive. Some of them offer me a hug when I need one. Funny, I actually finally feel comfortable enough to accept it from some of them.

I am counting down the days until my last chemo session. I'm still nervous with each one because I react to the drugs. Nothing major, but they always have to stop the drip and wait for a bit and restart it slowly. Last time they had to give me Phenergan which obviously made me drowsy. I wanted to go back to work afterwards, but the session ended up taking pretty much all day. I get the PICC line taken out straight after the last session too. Woohoo!!!!

I know surgery is coming up to, but I have made the decision to not think about it until I know the date of it. I want a couple of weeks or three or four to just relax my mind and enjoy myself before stressing about any decision. I've pretty much made my decision to have a double mastectomy. I don't want to have to go through all of this again. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

Thank for the love and the big hug xxx