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Hi Ange, 

I'm 39, just finished off my 4 doses of AC every 21 days, and now 3 sessions into my 12 weekly chemo runs.  I had surgery first (3cm lump removed and full axillary), with a 2 year old at home and suddenly stopping my full time work i found that was the hardest part for me really, not being able to pick her up and do the day to day usual stuff, driving, walking the beastie of a dog.  Don't get me wrong, the chemo sucks too, but I found those big hitting 21 day cycles pretty yuk, week one was a throw away, week 2 pretty average and week 3 I felt like I was just getting back to OK and then winding myself up about the next run.   But I got into a cycle of using week 3 as my catch up with work colleagues and friends week, kept me distracted and out the house.

Glad to say that the weekly sessions aren't knocking me about any where as much - so I truely hope its the same for you, no need for naps, getting back into walking and pilates, and I ended up with a power port, so the good news in the oncologist has confirmed I can get back to the swimming pool now too.  

Hang on in there, and be kind to yourself, I spent so much time trying to make sure everyone else was OK with my diagnosis that I forgot in those early days to just take time out for myself, and admit when I really did feel lousy.  For me the run up to periods (which I was told would stop but haven't yet) are the worst, armpits swollen and aches upon aches, but thankfully some days the red wine tastes drinkable, and friends are on hand to make me laugh, and when they're not I read the posts from all the lovely ladies here and remember I'm not alone, I'm not over-reacting, I'm just working my butt of to get rid of this cancer, and it's OK to be selfish sometimes on this journey.  Breathe deep and best wishes for smooth sailings through the rest of the treatments and future op.

Sending you Hugs & Happy times

Leonie