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Hi Ange,

I'm 32 now and have finished all of the treatment you describe here. At 31, I had the same diagnosis as you and faced the same decisions re. fertility etc.

I'd just like to say that the whole thing is shit. You don't deserve it and will probably find that it's the hardest thing you'll ever go through. People will tell you that you look well, that you'll get through, that you're strong - forgive them, they don't know how to express their love and support. But you, meanwhile, may feel like you're dying a slow, painful death as life becomes harder and days begin to blur.

I had almost the same chemo as you - fortnightly x4 then the 12x weekly - the weekly treatment is what destroyed me. It's hard to describe, but it felt wrong, every bit of my body protested against it and my 'normal' life disappeared in a haze as chemo-brain set in.

Good on you for sharing your experience on here, take whatever support is offered and be sure to prioritise yourself now - this is your struggle, you must focus on it and, while others will be desperate to alleviate your suffering, you're the one who faces it day by day.

I kept a blog, which you might find interesting - or might hate. Feel free to have a look and we can stay in touch if you like - notthecword.weebly.com.

All the very best to you, my friend. May you find moments of real joy amongst the misery you now face xx