Help....I hate my chemo curls

i finished chemo 10 months ago...what can you do but ride it.   My hair returned grey and curly and I was shoulder length blonde straight.  The identity thing I found odd, I really felt the internal me and who was the exterior! People would say oh you look great and I'd say "I dont know, its not me, its no my chosen identity".  I focused on keeping my internal-self happy and had to bide time until i could start trimming away and the curls.  Had three of those cuts, six weeks ago or so did a home colour which was I ok.  My regular hairdress, when I contacted her I explained how i felt and that I didnt know what to do with this short curly hair.  It has now been trimmed to a pixie cut, the curls cut out (apparently there's a few at the back - i cannot see them) and I had some foils/highlights.  I know feel as though, i have some control of my identity and who I am creating to back on with life!  Enjoy, karen x