@au0rei I think youve done really well, I know its playing on your mind that 1 infusion, will it make any difference if you do it or not?? this is where your Oncologist can only give his professional opinion but gee they wont tell you what to do as they can't. Makes it so hard!! Only you know what really sits with you.
I wanted to say too, not sure if you were thinking out loud of alternative things. I love Alternative Therapies, Im actually a Reiki Master of 17yrs and successful/gifted. I cannot STRESS enough to anyone all therapies are fantastic to help alleviate symptoms, work through issues BUT they are USED IN CONJUNCTION with MEDICINE. Ive done this journey 6yrs and a recurrence, I was so against having to do Chemo and I cant even tell you the way it which it destroyed me...BUT I know I had to do it, this is the only treatment available. I have no regrets. Cannot stress enough, do what is right for you, what really sits good with you. None of us know the outcome of any of it right or wrong, we only can trust we make the absolute best decisions for ourselves in any given moment. Thats peace. Hugs Melinda xo