You poor darling. Yes me I didn't want to have chemo because I believe it kills the very thing you need in life your immune system. I relented after my her 2 pos bc spread. I was scared and felt pressured. I instantly regretted it. Chemo kills the very thing we so desperately need our vital healthy immune system. Lisin to your heart and do what you decide is right. I believe poisoning to heal is toxic and cruel. If that's the path some want to take and suffer the side effects well that's their decision but only theirs. We all should do what we truly believe is right for us. I'm sure you'll do what is best for you. But I'm so hearing what you say.