I wasn't too worried about having to lose my hair, more concerned I was about to lose my life. Fine by me to trade a breast for the rest of my life back, and throw in the hair while we are at it, why not?
I went to a Look Good Feel Better workshop three weeks before starting Chemo, and it was fun and very helpful. The wigshop lady tried beautiful wigs on us all, and everyone told me the blonde Marilyn Munroe look really suited me. So I started to look forward to finding out if blondes do have more fun even during chemo. And had to buy the wig, plus scarves, cloche hats, caps etc.
Had my hair cut short when I heard that it starts to look motheaten as it starts to fall out. There were strong winds as it started to loosen, and I thought maybe if I stood outside, the hurricane would blow it all away like thistle down. But no such luck. Got sick of waiting, and of the plughole clogging up in the shower, so my husband and daughter shaved it off for me.
My husband shaved his head too in solidarity. He said: I can't share your nausea or your fatigue or your sickness, but I can share your baldness. So I was not alone. In fact, when I wore my wig, people started to wonder if he was the one with cancer.
I did find out that gentlemen seem to prefer blondes and and are amazingly chivalrous to blondes, but maybe that was partly because wearing that wig brings out the flirt in me. It was fun during a time when otherwise I might have not felt very feminine, and wanted to.
Then the docetaxel and carboplatin was over, and my hair began to grow again at about a cm a month. After two months it was really long to me, but strangely people kept telling me how short my hair was.
It is wonderfully thick and wavy compared to my precancer hair. I also love getting it back, and feeling that as I get back my hair I am getting back my energy and health and life again. I hope you will enjoy the journey. It is not long, and it does grow back. Often even better than it was before