Hi there. I'm glad you have found our support community worth while and even if you don't post again you will find support just by being a part of a bigger thing. Your journey so far sounds similar to mine and although hard we continue. Your first chemo is daunting, take someone you can bitch too without being judged but you will fine the nurses are angels and especially onco nurses seem to be one more step up there. They are there for you, ask questions and try to relax, read or just observe, its an amazing journey, good and bad. I hope all goes well for you, now and into the future. XXXX.