Finished chemo

It's hard to put into words what is going on in my head. During my dark days I used to wish for the chemo to be over. I just gave my body up to the doctors to do what needed to be done. It was a rough ride.

First chemo I was positive enough, went home and felt awful. I thought that was how I was supposed to feel so didn't complain and just kept drinking lots of water. I woke up in intensive care a couple of days later with a nurse holding my hand and asking me if I knew where I was! I had had a seizure at home and took 2 days to come out of it. It turned out I was unable to take the anti nausea drugs and my body had shut down. I was a week in hospital and got a $1400 ambulance bill too! Found out the value of ambulance cover:(

After that, I fell into a dark hole without any hope. I couldn't face going to chemo again and felt I'd give up but I had a very determined family and wonderful supportive friends. My man told me he would drag me in kicking and screaming if he had to and my Oncologist put a plan together to finish the rest of the AC by staying in hospital for 3 days after each treatment. I didn't have any more reactions. It all became so easy after that and I was always eager to go home as soon as I could.

When I started the Taxol, it was even easier. I had treatment in the chair and then I'd have a little sleep when I got home for about an hour and then felt fine. We looked forward to seeing the wonderful nurses and the volunteers who made cappuccinos with homemade cakes:) That was my life a week ago. So here I am feeling a little lost but so very grateful!