Finally feeling like a 'cancer patient'
Hi Ladies,
Happy 2016 to everyone and I hope you are all doing well.
I've finally started my radiation treatment and am one week down out of six and I hate to say it but its been horrible and I was not expecting this at all. I live on the Sunshine Coast with an extremely old population and I find that every time I am at radiation I am the youngest in there by at least 20-30 years and its so depressing. I sit there in the waiting room in my little gown, with my basket of belongings under my feet and I immediately feel huge waves of anxiety come over me. Its incredibly soul destroying to be young (I'm just 38) and going through this whilst being surrounded by many very old people. Up until now I have found all of my other treatment to be ok and I have not felt anxious or depressed at all. I managed to skip chemo due to my cancer being grade 1. I have found in the last ten days that I have immense waves of tears just come over me which are un-controllable and I have never been like this- I'm usually always upbeat and happy.
I live on my own and whilst I have many friends who have been great, I am now finding the reality of many basic things taking its toll as I have been getting extremely tired from the treatment, most of which I think is emotional, but none the less, its debilitating. Did anyone else have a similar experience/s with radiation and if so, did it get better or how did you deal with it? Ive also found that my appetite is slowly going and my desire to have a glass of red wine has gone too- now that means there is definitely something wrong!- anyone else experience this too?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Lots of love Ness