Shaylee I'm so sorry to hear how it is going, I totally agree it is traumatic losing your hair, I think too after having some friends go through using cold cap and they did struggle and still had to use caps or headwear. I know for me personally, I would have found that more traumatic than being in control when I shaved my head once it started to fall. Its so very personal, and I totally get it, if I was told cold cap would 100% work for me I would have done it honestly, but to go through the thinning trying to manage it, I know I couldnt have done it when I was so ill on Chemo. All I can say is, its what YOU feel deep in you, what you want to do, nobody else, maybe hang in for a little while longer see if it stablizes. I know its so hard! Flip side, my profile pic is 1yr post chemo and I had long beautiful blonde hair it was devastating, but I lived with it and focused on it would come back and it sure has, plus I had beautiful wigs cut into the same shape I had, nobody could tell. Big Hugs xoxoxo Melinda