Chemo
Had my first chemo treamant yesterday. Before I went to my appointment I went and got my nails done by my wonderful friend Cherie and she painted them purple and put the breast cancer pink ribbon on the tips they look fantastic and everyone loves them. When Karl and i walked into the chemo clinic it looked quite scary with all the treatment chairs lining the walls but all the staff were very nice and caring people and did their best to make sure you were comfortable. They will answer any questions no matter how trivial it might sound. The are extremelly concious about the treatments and the routines of tripple checking every dose and with safety precautions. My nurse was fantastic he was keeping a very close eye on me and every few minutes he would come over and talk to me about how I was feeling and if there was anything that he could do for me.
This made us both feel so much at ease and comfortable. He said that we made his job easier with the paperwork etc, we have asked so many questions, research heaps through the breast cancer web site. We have read everything we have been given front to back and discussed this at length between us so we both know what questions we need answers for and Karl has been amazing when I was not able to ask questions due to being too upset he knew what I wanted to ask and he would ask these for me.
I had a close friend who had spent the last few days in hospital and was being discharged when I went in for my treatment and he came and sat with me for a while as Karl had to go to the bank then Karl spent the rest of the time with me so I always had someone with me that I knew.
I have been resting today, I dropped Tam and Aj at the shops with a shopping list and picked them up when they were finished, it is great that my kids are at an age where I can give them a full shopping list and they can do a great job. They went to the supermarket, the butcher and the green grocer by the time they were done I had a boot full of food. Thanks guys you are fantastic kids and I love you all very much.
Anyway I haven't been sick yet the non-nausea meds they have me on are working great I have only felt queazy while waiting for them to kick in. I have managed to eat breaky, lunch and dinner today and enjoyed every bite :)
Fingers crossed tomorrow is just as good, if I can continue through my chemo feeling like this it will be good it will make my recovery easier. I think that because I am eating good food too helps, I had porriage for breaky, toasted sandwich for lunch and pasta for dinner a bit too spicy so I made some more porriage (PS I love my porriage would eat it 3 times a day if I could but it has to be the fruity ones with wheat germ and a sprinkle of brown sugar mmmmmm).
Some more good news, if I am feeling up to it Karl wants to take me away over the weekend and forget all this for a while. Stand on a hill and take in the beauty of the seanery, dip my feet into a stream somewhere where the only sounds is of nature, I hope Im up to it. Thats another thing about having older teenage children they are able to look after themselves and cook and clean, Im sure with an 18 and 20year old in the house they will be fine for 48 hours.
The funny thing is this all still feels like a dream, I feel like I am living someone else's nightmare, I cant wait to wake up when this is all done I want to hear those sacred words.........'Your in remission', but I know that is still a long way off. I just take 1 day at a time other than dr's appointments I dont make any concrete plans, I like to think of myself as an organised person but this disease make your life utter kaos and messes you up that much these days I have to write EVERYTHING in my breast cancer diary known now as MUMS BIBLE and I check my phone everyday to see what day of the week it is and I check my bible 3-4 times everyday to make sure I am prepared for any appointment for that day or the next day.
Anyway time for me to cuddle down and try and sleep, goodnight and sweetdreams all, you are all in my thoughts and I send you lots of hugs oxoxoxoxoxoxox
