Another day feeling low ):

The excellent comments above are exactly what has been so helpful for me.  Validation that its a normal response to chemo, its difficult to not be emotional, and bringing up children when youre well is hard enough.  I found that I am struggling emotionally now, and kinda put myself in a bubble for the first 6 months.  Im off to counselling tomorow, which is part of Radiation preparation.   (its free via the hospital).  I investigating a cleaner, but wasnt eligible, and I did the housework, one job a day, on every 3rd week of chemo.  I think a lot of it is feeling guitly, you dont need to, just sleep!  I still have arvo sleeps or my wheels fall off (smile).  Each person has a different experience with Chemo, but let me tell you, we all have our list of "Gee could have done that better!"  Fresh air, a blue sky and even sitting outside clears my head.  I pushed myself to stroll around the garden (felt like a Nanna hahah), and always remembered the 3 week cycle.  Some ladies really struggled physically, some dont...... we are all different.  The children will cope. and I know you will make up for lost time when you feel well.  This is like going to a different country and not knowing the language, its called "Breast Cancer".   (big hug, cheer up when you can sweety, no first prize competition for acting, and ring and chat to some-one, it clears your head!).  X Bel