6 months of chemo

Thanks so much ... My fingers are crossed for you and I'm overwhelmed by the amount of support available... I just can't believe how common this is ... It's so sad ... We are so lucky to have this site ....all though friends / family are sympathetic, no one knows like us how it really feels to have that C word ... I should be asleep as I had such an active day ..however sleepless nights seem all to common.
My mum is here from the states lying beside me asleep and is coming with me on the 11th for app re treatment then flies back the next day .... I know how much this is hurting her and feel so much for her.  It seems like the whole world should revolve around me at this time and I find myself aware of acting like that and hate myself for it.   I am generally happy and bubbly most days however most mornings wake up happy then 2 seconds later it's like ... Iv got cancer ... 
Ebbs and flows ... day at a time ... Have even joined dating website just for attention .. Don't want to take anything further .... Can you imagine ... " Hi I'm Danielle I have breast cancer .. Fancy meeting up for a chat ?" !! ... It's a good distraction ! 
Thinking of all you lovely ladies and knowing we are united in fighting this battle together makes for positive outcomes and lifted spirits xxxx