@"Hopes and Dreams" Oh Jane thank you honestly, damn!!! I thought these tears were finished until I read your post on top of everyone elses WHOA!!!! BIG BREATH!!!! You hit it on the head, im sacrificing it for the future, everything is perspective isn't it!!! I so admire everyone here for what they have endured and continue to endure, so many without choices. I must remind myself how gutted I was at my recurrence in 2015 complete disbelief. This might sound strange, but Ive always been incredibly independent and have raised my children for the past 6yrs alone, my baby in VCE this year. I actually found myself wishing I had my family unit, husband and all to take care of me....it wasnt to be and I had to do most of it alone. I think with my Mum gone too there have been moments when I just want to stop being the strong one and someone sweep me up and nurture and look after me. But I have realized Ive had to do all of that for myself, I am blessed to have so much and people who cherish me, but maybe this was my lesson, its given me a chance to learn to love ME so much more and my importance above everyone else. Its pretty powerful, I actually think Im a better Mum for it lol...all be it swearing and cranky at times haha!! Thanks Jane xo
