@iserbrown Thank you so very much for your encouragement, you are right, in that, I know I have to do it, but deep down I know I don't want to, but it is for the best and I do realize that. I will ring the support and have a chat, I think it really will be helpful, thanks!
@rowdy Thanks! it really is that isn't it? I can be honest, Ive always loved my boobs, losing one is incredibly personal as i know not everyone is attached to them. The harder part I carry is my Mum had a Mastectomy at 40 and she regretted it, adds to my pain, though I know I am so very different. So am being super smart!
@Afraser Thanks! You know I think the self doubt creeps in, you spend so much time being on top of it, proactive positive and doing all the right things, that you do lose a little faith that I made this decision as I know I dont want to face another recurrence, so you are so right!
@Primek Kath thank you so much, I am grateful that Im only losing one its so scarred and battered from all the treatments and surgery that not even i cant touch it, so its useless anyway. Strangely when I think about it, Ive been living with one Boob!!! really since mid 2015, so how will this be any different really? I love the idea of writing, I used to write alot and alot of poetry, so that I will do!
@Lisa50 Thanks so much too, I am so very aware of my journey and I think like everyone here it really helps when listening to others and how you can help support. I guess the reality is I am human and the journey gets downright hard sometimes. Stupid isnt it? sometimes I forget to give myself permission...being a single parent Ive had to be everything to my kids, breaking hasnt been an option and yet I allowed them to see all of me through Chemo...and I have no regrets so I need to remind myself of that! This is life, being strong is one thing, being sad, fearful, angry and downright a raving lunatic at times is OK too.
@"Michelle R" Thanks! I think thats why I try to keep focusing on, Im thankful its just a single and knowing that boob wont give me any trouble again, really is what keeps me going. Yes Ive started to plan, meals, pillows bit anxious as will be alone alot as to how I'll manage as long as I can shuffle along I'll be fine.
@socoda My Dear Cath, thank you so much yet again for your support, my Dad is in reasonable health, but Im worried as this is too close to home, he nursed my Mum through the same surgery, so I know how hard it is for him. I will let him come for little bit and I have to say he was my rock through Chemo, took care of my kids kept us all going.
Sorry I know a long post, but wanted to acknowledge you all, and thank you for the support, I know its so normal to feel this way, and cry?? OMG all week long it hasnt let up and that has concerned me. I find out tomorrow my date and Im hoping that I will feel a little more peaceful stepping through everything. Big breath...just another hiccup on the road to freedom hmmm??
Big hugs everyone, yeah yeah the posts made me cry some more Uuuuuugh!!!! xo Melinda
