Mel, I am feeling sad for you today. You have always been so positive and encouraging when helping other women with your kind words. Now you are needing a big dose of the same! I see you have been through so much over the last 6 years and to face this all over again must be very daunting. You have EVERY right to feel this way (sad, upset, angry) Especially being practically alone and when you feel so well.
BC attacks us at every level, not just the physical but the emotional/psychological which can be harder. We can never be prepared for how we will feel. Trying to be 'strong & positive' is tiring so allow those normal current feelings to happen. Don't fight them. Of course you are scared! I'm sure the relief will come once it's over & you will look back again & say..Yes, I did it..I am strong..! Please give yourself a break from the pressure of how you 'should' be feeling right now.
You are doing the right thing. You WILL get through this. Thinking of you Mel :smiley:
Please keep us informed. When is surgery?
BIG HUGE HUGS to you, Lisa XXX
