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melclarity
Member
9 years ago

All Clear happy and healthy, BUT pre admission tomorrow for Mastectomy/Recon struggling mentally..

To say its been a tough week, has been an understatement even after a recurrence multiple surgeries and treatments over the past 6yrs. As much as I knew it was coming, I wasnt prepared for the call fr...
chemotherapy
lumpectomy
mastectomy
radiotherapy
Reconstruction
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primek
Member
9 years ago
Perfectly normal for you to have these conflicting emotions. It is a big deal. When first diagnosed the losing of my breast was the biggest hurdle. I did find it very distressing. I didn't know how intimacy was going to be after..could I orgasm without that part of our lovemaking? How would I look. My big boobs was a big part of who I was, how I looked..how I dressed.

I did have a farewell boobie party. I wrote a poem that reflected the importance of them in my life. They fed my babies.

Have I regrets. No I havent. Do I feel comfortable now...yes I do. Intimacy sorted...yes we adapted. Do I still miss them...always, they were are part of me.

So Mel...we get it. We are here for you. And yes it will be hard for you. This is just the last bit for you to be able to remain cancer free.

The morning of is terribly hard but once surgery is done the final healing, physically and spiritually will begin.

Blog often. Kath x 
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    paulina_gtzr
    Member
    5 months ago

    I'm reading this thread, as I decided yesterday to have mastectomy. 

    I like that....farewell booby party. Oh primek​ would you share your poem with us? pleeeease. 

    SEnding good vibes to you melclarity​ 

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      melclarity
      Member
      5 months ago

      paulina_gtzr​ all the very best for your operation. Gee 9 years ago feels like a lifetime ago :) Interesting as today I stopped at the supermarket on the way home and there were 2 people fundraising for BC. I get the fundraising but seriously these people do not know what anybody's story is. It brought up alot of things for me. I actually ignored them and walked by. I then see this message come through. It's interesting, there will always be layers to all of this that resurface and we slowly heal those parts of us in survivorship that nobody truly knows about. I am so happy honestly, reading my original message here I remember those feelings so very vividly. 9 years on, I think now, I wish I'd done a double mastectomy, but it was too traumatic. I never thought I'd feel normal again in any capacity and yet the world keeps spinning. In so many ways I couldn't be further from these days, and that is a miracle and such a blessing. So I send the biggest of hugs to you and want to tell you, you are going to be OK, that you are braver than you think. I also learned that doing it didnt change who I am in any way, it was just a part of me and something I had to do. No regrets :) Please take care and look after you, time to put YOU first above everyone and everything, it is super key. 

       

      Hugs Melinda. x