Perfectly normal for you to have these conflicting emotions. It is a big deal. When first diagnosed the losing of my breast was the biggest hurdle. I did find it very distressing. I didn't know how intimacy was going to be after..could I orgasm without that part of our lovemaking? How would I look. My big boobs was a big part of who I was, how I looked..how I dressed.
I did have a farewell boobie party. I wrote a poem that reflected the importance of them in my life. They fed my babies.
Have I regrets. No I havent. Do I feel comfortable now...yes I do. Intimacy sorted...yes we adapted. Do I still miss them...always, they were are part of me.
So Mel...we get it. We are here for you. And yes it will be hard for you. This is just the last bit for you to be able to remain cancer free.
The morning of is terribly hard but once surgery is done the final healing, physically and spiritually will begin.
Blog often. Kath x
