Hi Linda,
Christmas on top of all your worries-I'm not surprised you had a champagne meltdown. Just be sure to give yourself a break and know that it's fine to have meltdowns over breast cancer. Actually, I found that the medications when I was on chemo made me a bit crazy...combined with the mental weight of it all and trying to keep a relatively normal routine for my family (2 boys, 1 and 4 at the time).
The chemo scared me the most too and unfortunately I didn't cope well with it. But, as the other ladies have said, there are so many types and combinations of chemo that you might just be fine.
I was at home with my 2 littlies at the time but there's no way I could have worked. (I'm a primary school teacher). I had lots of help from my friends and family-sometimes I wanted everyone to bugger off and leave me alone but I think it also helped them to help me!
I just posted a comment with another lady and said to TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME. Information overload was stressful for me and I found it helped me to just focus on getting through each chemo and not looking towards the next.
Take care. We're all thinking of you. XXX