A starting point.
Here is a bit of an introduction, I am 39, I am a mum to 2 great kids aged 11 and 9 and a wife and busy with a job that I love and life that I love……… This is my first blog, all about my adventure on this crazy crazy rollercoaster to date!
I have just had the most amazing summer holidays. It was by far the most relaxed I have felt for a long time. About 3 days after arriving home I was getting ready for bed and had just taken of my bras, and was thinking "wow, that feels so much better!" and ran my hands over my breasts as you do, only to feel that the left breast felt swollen. Bit like a bee had stung it. But not sore at all. I thought I had best get a second opinion so I went and asked hubby to feel it as well - he agreed it didn’t feel "normal". So we decided to keep an eye on it for a couple of days.
The swelling or maybe it wasn’t swelling more of a firmness, went away over the next day or 2, but I could feel a lump about the size of a grape. Still it didn’t hurt at all, I felt fine. My hubby insisted I get it checked by my GP which took a couple of days to get an appointment with, but that is very normal. My GP had me booked in at the specialist before I even had my top back on! He really didn't let on too much, I was still confident it was just some dense tissue or a cyst. There is no history of any cancer in my family, I am relatively young (39), fit, healthy. 'That was on the 15/01/2015.
A week later I was in for a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy. The specialist didn't even wait for the biopsy result to come back before he let me know that yes, you have cancer" Shock is an understatement! That is that start of the rollercoaster for me. The next day it was back to Adelaide for a MRI and chest x-ray and the following day for a full body scan and back to the specialist. That was a very confronting day. I work out side, and always thought if I was going to get any type of cancer it would be a melanoma.
We went back to the specialist with all the images I had collected in the last 24 hrs to be told that I was having surgery on the 2/2/2015 to remove the lump and 1 node that was possibly also affected. As crazy as it is we came home and drank champagne that night because we were so relieved it was only in my breast and 1 node! It’s crazy how your emotions go!
Surgery was a breeze. They removed over 300g of tissue and the 1 node, clear margins all round. The lymph node was clear, YAY! And the lump was Stage 1, grade 3 (about 15mm circ) It isn’t hormone responsive and It is HER2 +
I am due to start chemo on the 6/3/15. And I am looking at a total of 15mth of treatment. I think it is going to be a long year. I will be on Doxorubicin and Cyclophosphamide for 4 cycles 21 days apart, then it changes to Paclitaxel every week for 12 weeks plus Herceptin every 3 weeks and the Herceptin continues for another 9 months after the Paclitaxel finishes.
It is so much to try and get your head around. I think I am still in denial about so much of it. I still feel completely well. I don’t feel sick at all. I do feel like bit of a fraud telling people I have cancer. I am dreading the thought of putting all these poisons into my body to try and kill of something the doctors are 99% sure they have removed. The Info that is given is contradictory and confusing. Technically I am cancer free at the moment, but just in case", we want you to do 15mths of treatment to stop it coming back, but the meds could cause another cancer 10 yrs down the track!! What am I meant to do with that kind of info? Feel a bit damned it I do, damned it I don’t!
I am positive I will beat this and I will look back on it as a bit of a bump on the road of life. I would love to have a reason as to why and what caused it, but I don’t think I will ever get that. I have been given half a dozen reasons why I shouldn’t have it and the specialists professional opinion is just that I am bloody unlucky!!
Anyway..... I know I a bumpy road ahead, and I will have lots of questions. It is great to find place where others are/have travelled and know the way.