Away from home seeking treatment
I've flown down to Brisbane for a quick appointment arranged before Xmas to meet my radio oncologist today, then I fly back home to meet my medical oncologist, ooohhh this is a big week and I find myself a little anxious after all the information I'm about to be fed!
As I live away from family and friends, staying with my brother and his wife I have observed an interesting reaction, so far my communication with them has been via social media and phone so face to face has been interesting as they seem to look at me so seriously! I find myself having to convince them i am going to be ok.
Their life continues with plans to go to Bali in 4 weeks and for me it seems life has been put on hold for a bit. A difficult feeling for someone who's used to being independent and a traveler herself.
Last week my GP convinced me to take up their offer of 3 months chemo to give me a better chance. You just never think this will happen to you I guess.
She gave me Pristiq to take to help with my anxious moments, the first two days I felt like a subdued puppy and by day 4 I was like one of those blue wrens you see on a branch jumping around like a lunatic. I couldn't settle, couldn't sleep, was nauseous, sure I wasn't overthinking but felt my mind was numb. My heart rate was up and begun to think this isn't for me.
I am wondering what to do when those feelings of anxiety come along, peppermint tea just might not cut it. I guess i go back to my GP for another solution but thought i would ask on this forum for any ideas?
Yes their is a big picture and future for me but at the moment i am swimming in my own anxiety.