Away from home seeking treatment

Interacting with friends and family is difficult.  I just want some normality but I know what you mean about the intensity.  They cannot hide their anxiety and it seems so weird.  It seems to pass with a little time if you do normal things with people and talk about something other than bc.  While I don't mind telling people about the bc I get sick of the topic and would rather talk about something else anyway.  If I can't manage my anxiety, I'm a person that looks for distraction.  I get on the computer to find something interesting to read or I find something to keep me busy and stop my mind wandering back to that thing that's hard to think about too much.  I seem to swing between wanting to avoid it altogether and needing to vent about it in a safe place like on here.  I think we just have to go with the flow and do what feels right at the time.