Newly diagnosed

So very very true Chorsell.

Yeah I had tears coming when I think about everything

Sending everyone positive thoughts xxx and heaps of virtual hugs

Now that brings a tear to my eye. And so very true. Sending positive thoughts out. Xx

Leisa, here here. Big hugs to you.

Gen you have said all that very well. I totally agree with you. We will find strength. And we must look after our selves, BC does not discriminate, there is some times no reason why, it just is. Positive thoughts. And hugs xx Juli

Hi Gen,

I'm waiting now for an appointment with the Gold Coast Hospital to find out what is happening.

At the moment I'm riding the Rollercoaster and the Pity Train at the moment.  I'm feeling all screwed up with my emotions I don't know what I want to do I just want it over and finished.  My GP has been fantastic since last Friday.

I have no trouble blurting out I've got Breast Cancer but now it's starting to get hard as I think it maybe finally sinking in.  As I'm normally working 5 days a week and wear a uniform today I cracked it cause I can't at the moment fit into clothes as I've put on weight due to me not making healthy food choices but that's a whole other tangent.  So I consequently went out and brought some clothes just so I've got something to wear around the house. 

My store manager and department manager have been so terrific and have made a pact with me to make sure that I either ring them every couple of days to let them know how I'm doing or they'll keep in contact with me and if I need anything and they said anything at all to let them know. 

I want to cry but can't seem to cry, will be going to see my GP tomorrow and let him know what is happening and how I'm feeling.

Thanks for the chat and I'm enjoying it.

 

Love

Leisa xxxx

Hi Leisa,

Sounds like your GP is all over it, it's great that you got in so quickly to see a surgeon - this waiting and not knowing part of the process is really difficult.  Just as a side point, I didn't have private health insurance either and have been entirely through the public system (St Vincent's in Melbourne) and it has been an incredible experience.  I've never come across such amazing kindness and care, and there was no waiting times at all really, it all happened in a total whirlwind.

I guess just take as much time as you can to process the information your surgeon has given you so that you can come to terms a little bit with what's happening - I know it sounds easy enough to say but it will happen.  My GP told me that I would be in a state of shock for about a month after I first found out, and she was right - it really didn't start to sink in with me until after surgery had already happened.  I couldn't even say the words 'breast cancer' out loud for a couple of months without bursting into tears. 

I know it's easy for me to say this, but please try not to get into your head too much about why this has happened to you.  I totally understand how unfair it all feels to have to face something as huge as this but you will be sabotaging yourself before you even begin if you try and answer such an unanswerable question.  Breast cancer doesn't discriminate.  Just focus on getting through the next 24 hours at a time and facing each challenge as it comes the best you can.  Believe me when I tell you that you will find strength within yourself that you never even knew existed.

Take care of YOU.  And keep us posted on how you're going with everything.

Gen

 

Hi Gen,

I saw the surgeon this afternoon, was quite funny as he asked me how did I find the lump or something along that line as I was telling him he was reading the form you fill out and said you don't have private insurance which I replied "no" he asked why did my GP send me to him, I said that it was going to be a week to 2 weeks before I got an appointment at the hospital.  The surgeon said that's pretty good and I should really be going to them, my sister said that my GP thought he might be able to get me in quicker to the hospital.

So he examined me and told me that I'd probably be looking at a full mastectomy, I also asked him to explain the whole BC thing.  He was really good and went through all the things which for the life of me I can't remember, hahaha.  I do remember that I wouldn't know if I was going to have to have chemo until I had the tumor removed and pathology had been done.

It's kind of the rollercoaster thing happening as I asked my husband " what did I do wrong to get this" it's not fair.

Take care Gen

 

Leisa xx

Hi Juli,

It's good to hear from a newbie as well, yeah I'm trying to do step by step but I think I'm also struggling to come to terms with what has happened.. I'm starting to do the "why me" thing and the "what did I do to deserve this".  This is only a recent questioning.  Well today is the day that I see the surgeon and find out exactly what is installed for me.

Good Luck to you Juli let me know how your going

Leisa xxx

Hi Leisa, I was just reading your post and the replies. I had to check my calander, I was diagnosed 2 weeks and 3 days ago. Wow have been through so much. And taking each step at a time is the way to go. I think having your sister with you is a good idea. I am just new at this whole thing. Good luck. Juli x

Hi Leisa, I was just reading your post and the replies. I had to check my calander, I was diagnosed 2 weeks and 3 days ago. Wow have been through so much. And taking each step at a time is the way to go. I think having your sister with you is a good idea. I am just new at this whole thing. Good luck. Juli x