Oh Helen, I am so sorry for all that you've been through. You have no need at all to apologise about the get together. My thoughts when I didn't hear from you were that you might be unwell and I was concerned for you. Sorry to hear that I was right.What a dreadful, dreadful tragedy too regarding your God son. So often you hear on the news of young people being involved in accidents when they speed or drink. I remember thinking when I saw James' story on the news, how unfair as he was totally blamesless and so unlucky. You are clearly going through a terrible time at the moment. My thoughts are with you. When you feel ready for the get-together, lets find a cafe or restaurant rather than meet at your home. Given how unwell you've been and all that you've been through, I think it would be too much. I went to a lovely cafe in your area on Saturday with some friends. It was called Gourmet Girl. Just a suggestion. My thoughts are with you and I hope that things improve for you Helen. Take care, Janet.