Feeling like a failure
Hi. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in both breasts, two weeks ago and am heading in for surgery on the 13 February. I am having a bilateral mastectomy. To be honest l am not overly concerned. I am very over weight and have very big heavy breasts. I have absolutely no self esteem when it comes to my body anyway so it is not a major thing physically. It probably sounds ridiculous but it will probably be an improvement as l do suffer with bad neck and shoulder pain with the heaviness of my chest. I am a Christian and have a strong trust in God but I am feeling a bit lonely and like a bit of a failure. After a big day of diagnosing or meeting with surgeons it is hard coming home to an empty house and having no one to share it with. Thank you for letting me pour my heart out as l don't feel like l can do that with my friends.