HI hulos, I really empathize with you ie looking down and wondering what it will look like with one boob. Im having mine off in a couple of weeks and it is daunting. I am only a few years younger than you so I get it. I have even found myself holding my breast!! its almost like starting to grieve before the event and that is why I would personally advise, dont rush into a reconstruction, it can be done at any time down the track ok. Its really likely that any decision you make now will be effected by emotions only.
I have tried to mentally prepare myself by looking at photos, but that too I dont think is very helpful. Once its your own body, in my experience getting a stoma 10 years ago, there is no such thing as mentally preparing yourself for this type of thing. Maybe im alone there with that idea, but it really is different when its your own body. Try to relax, go with the flow, dont make too many decisions too quickly. Just get past the first part and try not to think beyond that at the moment, thats what I am trying to do, sometimes it helps and sometimes not. Just do what you can do and get online like I do when you need a shoulder. Your experience is your own. Do you have the my journey kit and the my care kit?? I received my journey kit about a week ago and the my care kit yesterday. A beautiful bra from Berlei and two soft form prosthesis. You can even remove and easily re-add stuffing for early swelling etc...