I am sorry to hear your news. I can understand how you feel, I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my right breast and I needed to have a mastectomy. I decided I wanted a double mastectomy because I didn't want to feel like a freak. I didn't want breast reconstruction because I am extremely overweight and a size G cup and I was advised against it anyway. My risk of going under a anaesthetic was higher than most (15% as opposed to the average 5%) and this figure would double by having a double mastectomy and the surgeon also advised me that if the left wound site ( from the removal of the cancer free breast) took longer (or worse, became infected) then this would delay the start of any further treatment I may need. Stll, I pushed on for the double mastectomy. I had my case to be put forward to the medical review team ( I tried twice) and my surgeon even referred me to someone else for a second opinion. Still the answer was the same (I delayed my surgery by 6 weeks) whilst arguing with the the medical team. It was only when my breast cancer nurse said to me to me "what is more important? Removing a breast or saving your life? My surgeon agreed to remove the left breast for me in 12 months time (or after any necessary treatment ( I have just found out I need chemo and radiation) was finished. 5 weeks post surgery and I have to admit that my surgeon was right. The surgery went well but recovery from the anaesthetic not so much, 2 days in ICU . ). I have to admit that my medical team was right. Don't get me wrong, I have had several really good cries over the past 5 weeks but I have also had wonderful support from my Psychologist and breast cancer support group as well as this website, family and friends. If you think it might help, see your gp for a referral to a psychologist for 10 sessions under the Medicare mental health plan. I have found it helps to talk to someone that you can share your private fears, grief, or anything else you might be feeling. They can also give you mindfulness exercises to help you. Goodrich with your surgery, post surgery recovery and test results.