Even though I chose a mastectomy over lumpectomy and bilateral over unilateral I still cried a lot at losing my breast. It was a big part of me...it fed my 3 children...it was a huge part of my intimacy with my husband. However not for a moment did I hesitate to do it but it doesn't mean I wasn't sad. I still miss my breasts but my focus now is getting through chemo and being cancer free. I went for immediate reconstruction which helped a bit...but I understand why you can't with what's happening. Know that you will get through this and you are more than your breasts. Healing thoughts heading your way. Take care. Kath x