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Sevenbe
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9 years ago

Surgery tomorrow

Surgery is tomorrow. My surgeon ended up feeling confident enough to try for a lumpectomy. There's always a risk that won't work and we'll need to come back for a full mastectomy after chemo, but it seems like it's worth trying.

The good news is that I don't have to decide about a reconstruction or not for a good long while, and maybe not ever. I could potentially even get the other one reduced down the track to match. I actually quite like that idea. Quite frankly, I've always felt that my breasts were a bit too big for my otherwise fairly slight frame anyway. And they're a pest for going jogging with. Going down a few cup sizes might well be a relief.

But I'm still a bit nervous about surgery tomorrow.  

Mostly that's just my own anxieties about the anaesthetic. I really dislike that feeling of going under, of losing all control and knowing that people will be doing things to my body while I'm unaware. That's the stuff of nightmares for me. Still, take a deep breath, do it anyway.

In the whirlwind of activity over the last few weeks I feel like I haven't had much time to really enjoy my pair of matching breasts for the last time. I've heard some women have boob-parties to wish them farewell. I thought it was silly when I first heard it, but I kind of wish I'd done that now.

Generally I've been pretty forward focused about the whole cancer diagnosis. All the decisions are based on which of various future scenarios you’ll be happy with. There’s a lot of imagining the best and worst of possible futures. I’m sure that’s productive and healthy and will help me adjust to the changes to my body, but it’s given me precious little time to enjoy and appreciate what I have.

Aside from the afore-mentioned faults (and developing cancer, obviously) they've been pretty good breasts. It's been nice having them.

8 Replies

  • So glad to hear everything went well with your surgery - what a relief for you!
    Now you can focus on the next stage of the journey towards recovery. 
    Be sure to take those naps when you can to give your body & mind the rest it needs :) 

    Take care

    Mel xx
  • Thanks everyone for the kind words. And sorry for the very late reply. I just really didn't feel like being on the computer for the first few days after surgery and then the update happened.

    Surgery went well. No real complications. My blood pressure dropped quite a bit and stayed very low for a long time but is coming back up to normal now. My surgeon did a fantastic job, it looks great and I've really only gone down one cup size at most in that breast (and it was a fairly large lump she took out, 55g). I'm very happy with it.

    I've been a bit stiff and achy, but otherwise not in much pain, just tired. I'll be doing fine and then suddenly will urgently need a nap. I'm nominally back at work this week for a bit, but just doing half days for now.

    Thanks again everyone for the kind support.

  • Hi Sevenbe, I'm a bit late, but all the best for your op. I had a lumpectomy in 2013, I was fortunate with my surgeon  (public), he had done some time in cosmetic surgery before specializing in breast cancer. I am a large breasted person & so glad I went with the lumpectomy, Very lucky to have had the choice. All the best, let us know how you are recovering, Hazel xx 

  • Hi Sevenbe, well by the time you read this you will have had your surgery and now be on the recovery road. Congratulations!!!! Wishing you all the best and a speedy recovery. Let us know how you're going. Xx Cath

  • Hi seven be! Wishing you all the best for your up and coming surgery. I have recently had 2 lots of surgery, the 2 nd included left mastectomy and axil clearance. On the way to recovery now with my chemo starting last Friday. A long road for any of us to take but everybody on this website gives amazing support and advice and we will all make it!! 

    Andrea x

  • Hello sevenbe, you sound very much in control and relaxed about your operation tomorrow. Well done.  Yes it's scary going under. Try really hard before going in (because sometime there is a wait) of thinking of something beautiful, like your family or your best holiday you have experienced and most important be comforted by knowing this operation we take that rotten thing away.  

    Keep us posted as you continue your progress.

    Thinking about you and also Mel this week. Stay strong knowing so many on this site are sending positives vibes to you both. 

    Anne-Marie ??

     

  • Hi sevenbe

    i had a lumpectomy in December last year.

    two tumours removed, reasonably generous breasts but small frame, like you. 

    my surgeon ( public system ) did such a great job that you would never know ??

    Seriously !  I can barely tell ! 

    Good luck ??

  • Hi Sevenbe,

    I can definitely relate to how you might be feeling - my surgery is this Fri (lumpectomy & sentinel node biopsy) 

    Even though it's the second time around for me (recently diagnosed with a new primary in my 'other' breast 12mths after the first) I'm not looking forward to that disorientating feeling of going under either!

    At least by this time next week we'll both be our way to the next part of this journey - recovery from surgery, getting pathology results & what the treatment plan entails. 

    Wishing you all the best for your surgery & recovery :) 

    Mel xx