Scared of recurrence!!

Hi Peta et al

I'm only a third of the way into my first series of chemo (TAC) after a mastectomy for three triple neg level III aggressive lumps with 35 lymph glands out and invasion into a node and the blood system. Next year I'll have five weeks daily radio. My surgeon had originally suggested lumpectomy and recon with chemo following - until early results came through & it had to change. I wasn't surprised, indeed I was surprised he suggested the lumpectomy - and I felt it gave me unfair hope at a time when I had already psyched myself into the mastectomy. I was surprised too how many lymph nodes they cut out (didn't know there were so many there!).  I look forward to reading other comments from members, too, on the five years... at the moment for me it feels like a long way away, maybe too long. I don't think my family 'gets' any of this.