Scared of recurrence!!

Hi Ladies,  

Thank you for all your messages.   I am encouraged by everyones stories.  I saw my onc today, and she was very helpful,  Ihelping me realise that no matter what the decision, it's the right one for me.   I am not so much concerened with dying from breast cancer, or survival rates.  For me it's the feeling of not wanting to do chemo again.  I don't want to see my kids see me go though that again.  That shit was tough.  Real tough.  They're only little and even though they were little troopers, I could see it was breaking their heart to see me so ill.   I can't put my family through that again. 

Thanks everyone for your messages, I will let you know ,my desicion!  xxxx